Our journey throughout our first year of marriage and our second deployment.

Monday, February 28, 2011

No MORE Excuses

Ok, so quick question. Being a military wife, is there ever a point where you feel like your circumstances are unfair or that it makes things more difficult in your day to day life? I've felt that way for awhile. It's been a stressful week, what with midterms and all, and it's about to get more stressful, but today I had my first of many breakTHROUGHS!! I say that because I may have cried and questioned a lot, been a bit emotional, and it started to look like a breakdown, but then I realized something. This is MY life! Everyone has their life and this is one part of mine. ONE part.. And I've been allowing everything with the deployments and the drastic changes that have occurred in the past 3 years to be excuses and to overcome who I am as a person and how I live my life. I realized that I haven't truly been able to show who I am and what I am capable of AT ALL since I've been at OSU. Get ready people!!

I have less than a year of school left before I graduate. LESS THAN A YEAR!!! *Cue Hallelujah Chorus* I know I haven't shown what my full potential is and what I can do when I truly apply myself to everything that I'm doing. Gosh, I feel like I've been behaving as another individual and having this realization of what I can do to get out of this rut makes me feel like I've gained a part of me back! It's so liberating and encouraging! But, I finally had the nerve to say that it doesn't matter what I'm going through because that doesn't make me who I am as a person. How I REACT to what happens around me based on what personal things are going on in my life shows my character and who I am as an individual. I also realized that I deserve this! I deserve the right to be a better person, student, musician, wife, daughter, sister, friend.. all of it! I am the biggest obstacle keeping myself from achieving greatness and I refuse to let that be a barrier any longer. I owe myself the ability to be the very best that I can be, and not for anyone else's benefit.. but for myself! I have fight left in me and I'm ready to stand up and fight for what I want in life and what I am meant to do! :) It's been a good night! Now, on to practicing for conducting tomorrow!! :D

Monday, February 21, 2011

Less Than 100!!!

I literally have tears in my eyes as I write this blog.. I've been waiting for the double digit countdown to start since my Hubby left! It's been rough watching everyone else come home and enjoy that time knowing he is the last one to have leave (granted, we did want it that way), but soon it will be our turn to be together!! I cannot wait! It really is so encouraging to be so close! It makes me want to work harder to get everything done, from saving to working out to school to practice.. all of the above! I want to have everything at 150% when he gets home!! I made a countdown for every day between now and then and I'm anxious to slowly rip off one sheet day by day until it's finally here!! I'm so excited I can't wait! And I plan to make the most of each day, or at least try to.. until he comes home!! :)

Monday, February 14, 2011

Just a few more hours...And this "Holiday" will be over!!

So, brief update: The past few weeks of my life have been psycho with thing after thing occurring... OMG! We've had ridiculous weather with the snow, I fell last week and knocked my head on the concrete step outside my apartment giving myself a concussion, I woke up from a nap a few days later to 3 inches of icy cold water covering half my living room and dining room and my entire kitchen and utility room.. so I've been staying with some friends since Thursday while my apartment is under maintenance. Gah!
Valentine's Day is finally here and over the past few weeks as it's creeped up, I've been fine! I've actually been excited... until today. I didn't think it would be this big of a deal, not having the Hubby here.. not even celebrating it at all. But, as those of you who are without your significant others must know, it is rough seeing all the love and stuff all over Facebook and all over everything. It's just depressing. I'm ready for today to be over though. There was even this obnoxious "friend" of mine on Facebook that posted her status as "...seeing all you SINGLE LONELY people WHINE on facebook about tomorrow being VALENTINE'S DAY just makes me want to obnoxiously BRAG about having the MOST AWESOME BOYFRIEND/VALENTINE EVER!!!" .. Seriously, I wanted to vomit and then tell her exactly what I felt about her mushy love being plastered all over the internet.. but I didn't. Things will be fine when he comes home, but until then, today is just a slap in the face of the reality we deal with everyday! Blah!

Saturday, February 5, 2011

Snow Days and Girls Weekend!!

Yay for more snow... I don't know how we can handle more snow after the record breaking blizzard we had last week, but apparently we can! We had school on Friday and OMG was it scary! We shouldn't have had school with how bad the roads were.. I feared for my life and the life of my car at some points during the long drive to the school! But I made it there and after all the snow and ice we had already gotten all week.. it started snowing AGAIN right before my class.
So, a few of my friends and I decided to be snowed in alone NO LONGER!! We got all of our stuff and headed to my apartment in preparation of getting snowed in... or iced in with the roads still being really bad! It's been a fun weekend!! We've watched chick flicks and done yoga, vegged out and gone to parties, and of course.. all the homework! LOL
So, yeah,... minus the minimal drama and who-gives-a-crap stuff.. it's been a wonderful weekend! Gearing up for Snowpocalypse Part 2 on Wednesday!! AHHHH!!!
Oh, and I realized today that I get to see my Hubby in a little over 3 months!! I'm so excited!! I hate that we've had to wait this long for him to come home, but I know it's necessary for certain things and it'll be easier to see him and then have him home for good shortly after! So, I'm super excited and looking forward to that! Belle and I have been doing yoga and ab workouts gearing for Daddy's homecoming! Mommy has to look smoking hot since Daddy's buffing up while he's overseas!! So excited!! Stay warm everyone!!

Friday, February 4, 2011

MilSpouse Friday Fill-In

Hey all! It's that time of the week and boy am I happy to have something to be blogging about with all this snow! Head on over to Wife of a Sailor to join in! :)
1. Since most of the country has had nasty weather, what has your weather been like this week?
Umm.. blizzard, snow, ice, and snow... along with single digit weather! It's been a fun week inside!!
2. What is/are your best money saving tip(s)?
Having my husband in charge of the finances... otherwise, I'm too tempted to shop! lol!
3. What was your favorite vehicle you've ever owned?
My current vehicle, my 2002 Ford Taurus is my favorite vehicle! I'm looking forward to our crossover SUV when David gets home!
4. What is a question you'd like to see asked in a future Fill-In?
"How did you and your Soldier meet?"
5. Fill in the blank: You might be a MilSpouse if....
You insist on doing things yourself, just because you've already had to learn to change all your own lightbulbs, load the extremely heavy suitcases into the car,.. If you have seperate recipe boxes for family meals when the Hubby is home and for meals when he is away... If you can go days, weeks, or months without speaking to your spouse and not freak out...
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, Plans to bring you hope and a future." -Jeremiah 29:11